big updates

9.9.25

ok so. largest update is that I dropped out.

yep. so, sorry for the massive two month disapearence. it's been a long and tiring couple months. Although I suppose I technically didn't "drop out" I withdrew from the bachelor extension after earning my second associate's degree. Now i'm waiting to hear back from undergraduate program's i've applied to transfer to. Four-five programs, four different schools, and an entirely different field than the one I was in school for until the last day of August. I've been looking primarily at russian language/literature and english literature degrees. while i would like to be able to do an undergrad thesis, not all of these programs have that option, though the ones that don't that i've applied too do have MA programs as part of their departments, so with any luck i would be able to continue at the same institute. i'm just waiting on an email from each of them now. 

actually, depending on credit transfer, i may only have to do the courses required for the major it'self, rather than an entire four year courseload, seeing as i currently have 152 or so credit hours. and quite a few of those will transfer to the schools i've applied too. 

the country seems to be on fire, and i hate seeing the news everyday, even though i can't seem to look away. my friend was able to move back to his home country recently and has confided to me that he feels 'almost like i got the last train out of berlin'. i have to admit, i feel rather the same. often my first thought upon seeing some new political horror being enacted is 'at least my friends overseas don't have to live with this as their law'. i feel almost like too much has happened to properly dump my thoughts about it here... and so much all at once as well. i will certainly be looking at graduate programs overseas though.

speaking of overseas, i tried to mail a letter to a friend is russia, and found out that no mail whatsoever is being carrier there from the states now. and hasn't since july, which is only stated on a seperate usps site than the one that currently says 'yes, you can send mail to russia as long as its not [long list of regulations]. so now i have no way of getting that to my friend, which sucks. i was able to send out the letters to aus and eng though. i've started writing a lot more letters. being consistent penpals with my friends is lovely. especially as things get more precarious. 

i've had a lot more time to read lately (see the fact im not currently in school), especially because my job has decided to stop giving me hours at all. which means i'm paying bills entirely out of my student aid refund and nbe exam refund from last semester. i keep looking for a new job but no one has replied. well, no, one place did, to tell me i needed to fill out the application again in it's entireity, in person at the store. which i did. and then they've not replied to me since. essentially, i have enough to pay for this month and next month's car payment and insurance and that's it. which, of course, does not include my phone bill for either of those months. in other words.
i'm. fucked.

we persist though. we have no other choice. 

Corpseguy, signing off

new layout and writing

6.9.25

Finally got all my webpages updated to match my new site layout, and i started using codepen so i'm not doing all my coding directly into neocities, which makes things so much easier like ohmygoddddd i cannot believe i was doing this shit directly in neocities and updating the site EVERY TIME it did smth
also i've been helping my friend make a website too! and it's going really really well. they're putting all their writing up on it and i'm so proud.
actually, speaking of writing.... i got my first commission!! it's a little bit of a pity commission, because i was complaining about not being able to make my car payment because my paycheck was $60 short of what i needed and she commissioned me to write $60 worth of porn for our ocs. which they said they were going to commission me for at some point, so i've been told that makes it not a pity comm, but it still kinda feels like one.

Corpseguy, signing off

funerals, websites, and graverobbing

5.29.25

We had a whole big thing today about making sure we get our funeral requirements for graduation. Over half an hour of drilling it into heads about making sure we attend enough of them.
I'm so tired.
I've certainly decided that I have no interest in actually staying in/formally entering this field though. None of it is work that I actually enjoy doing, and I think doing a year long apprenticeship might actually drive me insane.
Anyway, I've started getting my curated archive up on my website. Influences, things I directly reference or quote in my work, things that drive me insane. Graverobbing my beloved. Not, actually, but, well. You know.

Corpseguy, signing off

OC Pages

5.24.25

I’ve started putting oc info, art, and I will be adding places to read all my friend’s and my roleplay threads for them up on my site. It’s been so much fun, and I think I really might and up moving a little further away from mainstream socmed. I find myself opening up neocities to keep working, rather than opening twitter to scroll, or tiktok.
I’m truly having so much fun and I feel like I’m being productive, rather than wasting time.

Corpseguy, signing off

Neocities

5.23.25

Got my second page up and linked to my neocities home. Slowly but surely I'm building a little home on the internet for myself.
I don't know that I'll ever be able to move away from mainstream social media entirely, but I do really enjoy learning how to care take my own haunted house here for myself.
Hopefully I'll be able to start making pages for each of my pieces of writing soon. I want those archived both on my own site and on ao3. Especially on the off chance I ever decide to wipe the ao3 account, I'll want them to still be somewhere. After that will be essays, and beginning to build my curated reference archive. That way all my influences can be seen and read in one convenient place.
Then to get started on my interest pages/shrines. Oh I have so many ideas and so little technical know how. I do, however, have enough homosexual audacity to believe I can figure it out!

Corpseguy, signing off